Wednesday 18 March 2009

St. Patrick's Day

I was about to propound a question, touching the manner in which that operation of changing my heart was to be performed, when Mrs. Reed interposed, telling me to sit down; she then proceeded to carry on the conversation herself.  "Mr. Brocklehurst, I believe I intimated in the letter which I wrote to you three weeks ago, that this little girl has not quite the character and disposition I could wish: should you admit her into Lowood school, I should be glad if the superintendent and teachers were requested to keep a strict eye on her, and, above all, to guard against her worst fault, a tendency to deceit.  I mention this in your hearing, Jane, that you may not attempt to impose on Mr. Brocklehurst."  Well might I dread, well might I dislike Mrs. Reed; for it was her nature to wound me cruelly; never was I happy in her presence; however carefully I obeyed, however strenuously I strove to please her, my efforts were still repulsed and repaid by such sentences as the above.  Now, uttered before a stranger, the accusation cut me to the heart; I dimly perceived that she was already obliterating hope from the new phase of existence which she destined me to enter; I felt, though I could not have expressed the feeling, that she was sowing aversion and unkindness along my future path; I saw myself transformed under Mr. Brocklehurst's eye into an artful, noxious child, and what could I do to remedy the injury?  "Nothing, indeed," thought I, as I struggled to repress a sob, and hastily wiped away some tears, the impotent evidences of my anguish.  "Deceit is, indeed, a sad fault in a child," said Mr. Brocklehurst; "it is akin to falsehood, and all liars will have their portion in the lake burning with fire and brimstone; she shall, however, be watched, Mrs. Reed.  I will speak to Miss Temple and the teachers."  "I should wish her to be brought up in a manner suiting her prospects," continued my benefactress; "to be made useful, to be kept humble: as for the vacations, she will, with your permission, spend them always at Lowood."  "Your decisions are perfectly judicious, madam," returned Mr. Brocklehurst.  "Humility is a Christian grace, and one peculiarly appropriate to the pupils of Lowood; I, therefore, direct that especial care shall be bestowed on its cultivation amongst them.  I have studied how best to mortify in them the worldly sentiment of pride; and, only the other day, I had a pleasing proof of my success.  My second daughter, Augusta, went with her mama to visit the school, and on her return she exclaimed: 'Oh, dear papa, how quiet and plain all the girls at Lowood look, with their hair combed behind their ears, and their long pinafores, and those little holland pockets outside their frocks--they are almost like poor people's children! and,' said she, 'they looked at my dress and mama's, as if they had never seen a silk gown before.'" 

2 comments:

  1. Oh did you have any green beer? I've never celebrated St Patricks day but always resent it because it's the day before my birthday. Usually everyone is so hungover the next day it's hard to get anyone back out to celebrate.

    That's a bit harsh of your friends to not invite you, did you want to go? No one likes being left out, but do you think they did it intentionally, or was it just an oversight? People can be a bit dense sometimes, they don't always realise that it can really hurt to be left out of things, or even realise that they are doing it. {{Hugs}} Time for desperate housewive's and ER?

    Lola x

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  2. No I didn't get any green beer unfortunately lol. Northern Irish people love to celebrate St. Patrick's Day, it's ridiculous 'cos everyone just wants an excuse to drink absurd amounts of alcohol. And Happy Birthday!! Hope you had a good day for it.

    I would have gone if they had bothered to invite me, we always go out together and this time they just didn't bother inviting me, I don't know why, I don't want to ask because I know if I have to I'll cry (tho I cry a lot these days) and I don't want to cry in front of them. Though yes maybe they didn't realise how left out I would feel, I do tend to be a bit oversensitive and paranoid about a lot of things.

    Thanks, yes I'm currently investing my time in Gimore Girls, an amazing show if you've never seen it! And thanks, you always seem to make me feel a bit better and I really appreciate it! Happy Birthday again! x

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